Out of My Comfort Zone

Last night was my first day of work at Teletech Bacoor. It's a good thing I brought my handy-dandy notebook, while waiting for my soon to be supervisor I was doodling away inside the pantry. It's a very cozy pantry. A lot better than the one we had in IBM. It looks like Starbucks, even the tables, couches and the tables are like those of a comfy coffee shop. Their resident concessionaire is Country Style - which reminded me of Charlottie, coz she loves Country Style donuts. It was very nice. More decent I must say. But what if you get tired of Country Style's donuts? No more options....

Still waiting.... I roamed my eyes around the area, and checked the bulletin boards. Announcements, parties, and I'd say they're very organized. Even the letters you receive, they track it and post it so you can easily see.


Suddenly I felt nauseous... not with disgust but beause my heart felt like throwing itself out of my chest. My feet were cold and my hands were like water fountain wet because of anxiousness.
I still have time to back out!

But I didn't.

It's such a familiar feeling, my fear of not blending in. I wasn't really the"unpopular kid" at school, but it always comes to mind that at some point in my life I will be a doormat. I don't want that to happen. Then I realized, I'm not so good in mingling with ohers. I mean I have lots of friends, but these people I met were as clueless as I was. Freshmen, first job, fresh wave. I remembered, I did not do so well in my law and history classes because I was with a different block. I never had friends there.

Questions start pouring in. Is this worth it? Should I be really seated here? I was tempted to stand up and go.

I didn't.

Leaving my comfort zone in IBM is the toughest decision I've ever made. I don't know what's waiting for me here, until my soon to be supervisor came and gave me a tour of the site. I was confused until I saw their incredible pantry which looked like a bar, a sleeping room with double-deck beds (can you imagine, real beds with no couples making out!) and a game room and DVD room with a wide screen, nice couch and movies to watch.

So much for comfort! Until I reached the training suite.... there I saw my future. Work... work... work... and no blog, no facebook, no YM and other internet stuff. Ooooh.... yeah.

Paradigm shift.

I survived my first day with overflowing assessments online. I was so full of it, I didn't wanna touch my pc when I got home.

Hopefully tomorrow is a brand new day to survive.